30 Days of Truths: Day 4

Day 04: 

Something you have to forgive someone for.

So here's yet another one I don't like.  When are we going to get to the happy ones?  I don't even want to go into detail on this.  I want happy stuff.  

I am hesitant to write this but here it goes... 

I forgive my dad.  He wasn't the greatest dad growing up.  The exact opposite actually.  You know how I wrote about how I was with Suraya when I was in my dark time?  Multiply that times 100 and you have my dad.  

I didn't have a good childhood.  I couldn't wait to grow up and move out.  I blocked a lot of it out.  I remember some things but they are not good memories for the most part.  I don't want to go into detail but it was just not a good 18 years of my life. 

I left when I was 18.

I forgive my dad now.  When Suraya was born he changed.  I can talk to him now.  It's still a little awkward because we didn't have a good relationship when I was little but he tries.

I know some people will not understand and may never understand why or how I can forgive.  I chose to move past it and make amends.  I don't want to be angry for the rest of my life and let it consume me.  

I forgive him.    

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30 Days of Truths

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself