Tuesday, October 5, 2010

30 Days of Truths: Day 8

Day 08
Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit

Wow, well that title is straight to the point!  This one is easy and I'm sure you already know who I am going to talk about.  

Before I start I would like you all to know that I'm over the past.  I don't dwell on it and I don't let it fester in my mind.  Of course once in awhile it will cross my mind but I don't let it bother me.  It is the past and something that led me to be who I am today.  If I let it simmer in my mind then I would be a miserable soul.  I chose to move on.  Plus, I am in a happy place now. I will answer these questions because I said I would and I will be open and honest.

I'm sure some of you have guessed this is going to be about V.  He treated me like crap from day one.  I didn't really see it that way at first.  I was supposedly in love and that seriously blinded me to all his wrong doings until one day I saw it.

I was very late into my pregnancy, probably 8 months or so when I opened my eyes.  He was partying a lot and lying about where he was going.  He would say he was one place and when I would call or go to see when he'd be home I would find out he had left hours ago to go to TJ or some club.  I actually drove all the way to TJ once to find him...yes, TJ as in Tijuana, Mexico!  No joke.  Man, I was crazy 8 months pregnant lady!  

Anyway, back to the story.  I start getting suspicious so I do some snooping.  Guess what I find.  An open condom wrapper in his pocket!  Oh of course it wasn't his he claimed.  Next thing I see (another time) is a hickey on his neck.  Really?  Can't you be a little more discreet?  There was more of course but those two were my eye opening moments. 

I was heartbroken by all this.  How could he do this to me when I was pregnant and about to have his child?  It all went downhill from there.  OK really it had been going downhill since before we even got married.  He cheated on me all the time and yet I stayed hoping it would change.  We moved to NC from CA.  I tried everything.  i thought moving would help.  no such luck there.  It would be OK for a month or two then it would go back to the same thing.

After we moved to NC I thought he had changed.  Ha!  I was so wrong.  He had been deployed for 8 months before we moved.  He had left when Suri was a month old.  He had a new baby so there was no way he would cheat now right?  Hehehe. IDIOT ME!  Of course he did!  He was with some chick the entire time he was over there.  He had conjured up some story about me (his crazy baby mama) and Suri.  It really was totally bizarre but she bought it.  He was carrying on this affair even after he left Japan.  They had been communicating via email and this is how I found out about it.  Wow, way to treat your wife huh?  Didn't he realize by this time that I was mega-detective?   

There was more than just cheating and it just all got to be too much for me one day.  I left.  

I think back now and I realize how horrible that relationship was.  He had always treated me like crap yet I stayed for so long.  I really can't remember one happy moment in that relationship.  It really was all a joke.  It was crap.  He treated me like crap and I am so happy I had enough courage to leave.  I left with nothing but my bedset and Suri's stuff.  I started over with nothing.  It was the best decision I have ever made in my life.  Look at where I am now!   

30 Days of Truths

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself


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