30 Days of Truth: Day 13

Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough days.

Remember this? It's baaaack. I don't think I've done one of these posts since October. I'm going to start where I left off....day 13.

I can't really peg one band or artist that got me through my dark days. There's just so many! Music was my getaway. It was a way for me to forget or mourn, depending on my mood. Since it's been so long since I wrote about all this I'll explain.

When I mention my dark time I am referring to the first few years after my separation and divorce from V. This whole 30 Days of Truth kind of centers on that time of my life thus far.

Since I have to pick one artist/band here it is, Monica. Monica is one of many artists that got me through my dark days. In the eary 2000s (when this was all going on in my life) she came out with a CD (before the time of iPods), "After the Storm", which seems to chronicle my feelings from the beginning of my dark journey to the end.

The song "So Gone" seems like something I wrote when I decided to leave V. In the song Monica is in love with a man who is cheating. Throughout the song she is trying to figure out why. What does the other woman have that she doesn't? What does she do to make him love her? All the sleepless nights... the lyrics are exactly what I went through and I would sit and cry while this song played over and over and over. The song was about me.

Then there's "Knock Knock". Oh how I related to this song during the end of my dark journey. Here's the first verse, "It's funny how the tables turn, now it's you running after me." That tells it! The tables sure did turn but it was too late. I had my time. I grieved. It was over. My marriage was done. No going back, yet he tried.

"Knock Knock" is like the sequel to "So Gone". It talks about how the guy wants to come back and Monica isn't having it. She doesn't want him calling or knocking on her door. She's over him and when this happened in my life it was like a breath of fresh air. He wanted to come back. We already tried that. I knew it was over for me. No more hurt. I couldn't handle it. I was no longer in love with him. It was over.

I would drive down the street, this song blaring from my car speakers, singing at the top of my lungs. I didn't care how I looked to others. My dark days had ended.

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30 Days of Truths


Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

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