30 Days of Truth

I saw this on a few blogs I follow and thought it would be fun to do.  You answer one question a day off the list below.  Each day is a new truth about yourself.  I haven't gone through the list yet so I have no clue what you will find out about me!  I'm jumping into this blindly.

30 Days of Truth:   

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Cricut: No need for the cartridges

I posted previously about there being no need for the cartridges when using the Cricut.  This was for other image files that weren't Cricut's.

Well, I just found a way to use images from the cartridges you don't own.  Pretty sweet!  If you're interested, email me for the info.

Here's a little dude I made yesterday.  He was my  test dummy.  It literally took hours for me to perfect the process.  It should be easy now that I know what to do.  Granted, it takes time but so worth it!

Sorry for the blurriness.  When I resized the image it blurred.

Weight Loss Progress

Two months ago I embarked on a new journey.  After seeing pictures of my self on vacation, while still on vacation, I new I had to make a change.  I was pretty horrified at what I saw.  How was I THAT big?  There's no way!  I was even wearing black in the picture.  Shouldn't that be slimming?  Hehe, J/K.  But really, it was time.    

Our vacation was in July and here's what I looked like then:

And here is now (September):

I still have a long way to go.  It's only been two months but I have a lifetime ahead of me to keep up my new lifestyle.  I know I can do it.  It's hard some days and some days I can't wait to get to the gym.  It's an emotional rollercoaster still with the fighting inside my head about whether to go to the gym that day or not.  Going usually wins.

Yesterday I read an inspiring quote.  I am changing it because I don't remember the exact wording but it goes something like this:

You will regret not working out but in the end you will never regret working out.

This was actually a quote for running but I changed it to make it universal.  I definitely butchered it but you get the meaning I hope.

Babies babies all around!

                                                                                             Suri as a baby

Many of my friends are either pregnant and due any day now or have newborns.  You would think all these babies would make me want one too.  Yes, at first when everyone was announcing their pregnancies baby fever hit me.  It's a pretty frustrating thing actually.  Thankfully it passed though.  It was just a momentary zing of jealousy.   

Fast forward a few months and now babies are being born.  Baby fever is completely gone and has been gone for quite some time.  No, not because I have babies to play with now but because I see how much work they are.  I see how tiring it is.  I see how much time a baby takes to care for.  I see it all and I am not ready for that.

My child is 9.  She's practically a grown up compared to the babies around me.  She is pretty self-sufficient and she doesn't have to be by my side 24/7.  She can have sleep overs, she can play outside, she can read in her room, she can feed herself, she can make her cereal, she can microwave food, she can dress and bathe herself, she can go snowboarding with us, etc.  She can do and go practically anywhere we want to go without much hassle.  I don't have to be by her side 24/7 and we don't have to change our lifestyle.

I like it this way.  I'm not ready to change.  I don't want the extra cost of having a baby in the house.  I don't want my freedom taken from me.  I don't want to gain weight again.  I don't want to be tired all the time.  I don't want my wallet to be even more empty.  I don't want a strain on my marriage.  I just don't.

I know it may sound selfish but I know exactly what having a baby is like.  I did it before, mostly alone, and it was enjoyable.  I did love it but it's just not something I am ready to do again just yet.  Andrew wants a child and it will happen eventually (assuming it can).  For right now we both are on the same track with waiting though.     

Ahh, so this is why I applied for this job!

I just found out my work schedule for the new job.  I will be working 7:30 to 5pm with every other Friday off.  The Friday I work I will only work 8 hours so I get to go in later.  NICE!

There are furlough days but it turns out I can take those hours anytime I want.  I don't have ot take a full day off.  I can take a half day or take a few days off, etc.  Kind of nice that I can choose how to take my time off with no pay.  In this case I can have every Friday off!  NICE!

So what will I do with all my new found free time? 
1. SLEEP
2. Workout
3. Shop
4. Scrapbook
5. Watch TV
6. Take the dogs to the dog park

Oh the possibilities!  What was I worried about yesterday?  Psssh, all that is gone!

Letter of Resignation

I just turned in my letter of resignation

I thought I would be overjoyed about this new step in my life but I'm not exactly.
It was a bittersweet moment.
Something I had been wanting for a long time.
It's something I've been waiting for for a long time.
Rather than feel excited with anticipation I am scared.

I'm scared of the unknown.
What will they expect?
Will I meet up to their expectations?
Can I handle the job?
Will I get along with my coworkers?
Can we afford to make this change?

So many things are running through my mind about this new job.
For a moment I contemplated turning it down because of the pay decrease and the unknown.
I didn't.
I accepted.

There will have to be changes.
No longer will we be able to save money by carpooling.
We will be taking a few hundred dollars a month pay cut.
There's furlough days.
My hours will change.
I will have a longer commute with actual traffic.
It's a scary change for me.

There are plenty of good things though.
The benefits rock.
I will have more days off.
I get two weeks vacation rather than the one week I get now.
I can actually retire from there.
I can move up whereas I am stuck in this position here.
I will get raises so I will eventually make more than I can here.
I get holidays off.
I get paid sick days.
I'm sure there's more.

I start October 7th.

My first attempt at making a card

It is 1:20am and I just finished a birthday card for a good friend of mine.  When am I going to see her and present my magnificent creation?  Oh, only in a few hours!

This card was a last minute thing.  I have never made one before so I naturally didn't even think about it until today when I was thinking about what scrapbooking I would do this weekend.  I couldn't wait to get home to start!  Well, we ended up at a friend's house for awhile and didn't get home until around 10pm....and that is when I started...from scratch...with no ideas!

Well many hours later and with burning eyes of tiredom (like my made up word?) I bring you my labor of love.  My very first card!

B'day Card (front)

B'day Card (inside)

                                                                                              

 

OK now it's off to sleepy land where I will dream of pretty paper and die cuts for 5 1/2 hours.  Told ya I would be seeing her soon!  Eek!  Nighty night!